Midnight Musings…

Growing up in church, we’d sing a song that would go like this:

“Make me a servant, Humble and meek, Lord let me lift up those who are weak, and may the prayer of my heart always be- make me a servant, make me a servant, make me a servant today.”

I really like this song, I really do.  Why, you ask?  Because every time I sing it, it usually comes out as an earnest prayer for God to help me where I feel like I sorely lack.

I go to one of the most populous churches around.  I don’t say that to brag.  I have a theory though, that for every person you have in a church, there are just as many (and probably more) ways you can serve, because we can minister to EVERYONE in the Body of Christ.  Therefore, since my church has a massive amount of people, there are massive ways I can serve.

I enjoy serving… but oh, does pride always knock at the door.  Sometimes it gets really hard.  The thing that hit me tonight after reading my good friend Micah Lugg’s blog was the reason I serve.  I desperately try to serve with complete 100% genuine humility… but as Derek Webb once sang, “there are things you would not believe that travel into my mind- I swear I try and capture them, but I always set them free…”  You have to have constant vigilance against pride.

I asked myself tonight, why do I come to church– is it to be served or to serve?  This came up in a discussion I had the privilege of participating in a few mornings ago… what is the point of a marriage?  So many guys out there have the misconception (whether they realize it or not), that they are looking for the best mate for them (selfishly), instead of looking for the person whom they can best serve.  Convicting.  Really convicting.

So, I guess the redeeming factor of this blog would be this: why do you serve?  Seriously?  Who are you wanting to see you?  What are you looking to get out of it?  Jesus served because He loved His Father and wanted to do His work.  He served so that He could bring compassion and comfort and salvation to those around Him.  He didn’t serve to get Himself noticed– He even turned down being the political king one time!

Lord, make me a genuine, selfless servant.  Please grant me a deeper love for You and for those around me.  Forgive me when I fail.  Amen.